My mental health has been horrific this week and it's made worse because I'm autistic and ADHD and the mental health services just don't accommodate for neurodivergent people. I found out this week that my PIP appeal was unsuccessful. They lied on the assessments and now I have to go through the stress of that and cope with £550 less a month until the appeal gets sorted, and it's absolutely crushed me this week. And then having to still look after my three children, when one of my daughter's birthdays is coming up and I just don't know how we're going to manage it.
If we weren't... and to be fair, I'm in this financial situation because my children have been denied education for years so I was forced to give up my job a few years ago. I do work part time now but I've still got stuff to pay off. If we were on a better income and we didn't have to watch every penny we spend, I'd be able to pay privately for my children to have the health care that they need. I'd be able to have private therapy. And we'd be able to have more enriching experiences and day trips and family holidays, and nice experiences. So generally life would be better and my resilience would be better, but at the moment it's just... it's like the system has looked at every area of my life and thought how can we knock her off her feet? How can we punish her? And I'm sick of getting back up again. I'm just sick of having to keep getting back up.