Rudy T

Today, I just feel heavy.

There’s so much uncertainty ahead, and it’s starting to wear me down. I still have a balance to pay for my Master’s degree, and with no job at the moment — and my husband also without a stable source of income — it feels like we’re stuck in a storm with no shelter.

We’re both doing everything we can, but when you’re trying to stay afloat and nothing seems to be working out, it’s exhausting — not just physically, but mentally. Some days I try to stay hopeful and tell myself things will get better, but today isn’t one of those days.

I feel tired. We feel tired. Not just from the stress, but from carrying it silently while trying to keep going for our family and our children. It’s hard to plan, hard to sleep, and hard to breathe sometimes under the weight of not knowing what comes next.

I just wanted to be honest about how I’m feeling — because sometimes pretending everything is okay takes more energy than we have left.