The Conservative party inflicting cruelty on the vulnerable in the UK

Today the Rwanda bill passed by law.

The cruelty these MP's are inflicting on refugees and asylum seekers is... I can't think of a harsh enough word.

The amount of money spent by the Tories and no one person has gone to Rwanda yet is ridiculous. I'm angry. I am shocked. I am in hope for justice to the most vulnerable people on this planet punished by lying greedy politicians.

Its painful, hurtful and damaging when your own government, the agency that's supposed to protect and provide for the most vulnerable in society, when they tell the world that people like you are trying to scam them. When they say they'll over therapy instead of money to live when your living costs are higher due to your disability. Saying we're a drain on the tax system and all but criminalising is for disabilities that are outside our control.

Here's a cost cutting idea, a real unnecessary drain on taxes, government workers expenses. I've been to Westminster, I saw the food menu they offered to their staff there, it's nothing like your usual staff menu or college cafeteria menu. They get rich folk food at our expense. They are wealthy people who don't need expenses but take them anyway.

Stop pointing the finger of blame for your governments failures at the most vulnerable of society and learn to reap what you sow.

It's scary for me, I know others in similar situations to me who are suicidal due to this, one additional stress on top of another. It's not healthy to be hated by the idiots who blindly believe what government has to say without any critical thinking.

Plus, sorry, the "they should get therapy" part is hilarious to me. My case with the NHS mental health system has been closed, not because I don't need them cos I do, but simply because they don't have the resources that I need (aka the right therapy) - I've done everything they can offer me and none of it has worked, none of it can because there is no cure for my type of mental illness, but despite my needing support their policy is to close cases they "cant do anything for". And privately, the very specific therapy I'm told I'd need that's not available on the NHS, is on average £250 per weekly session. I can't afford that, that's more than PIP. So my money is spent on bills and food and things to do that are aimed to manage my symptoms, which includes things to prevent me from ending my life so I can try to be the best mum I can be for my kids for as long as I have left in me. I'm under no delusions, it's unlikely I'll make it to pension age, I just want to see my children grow up and prevent them from being as hated in this country that people like me are.

I wish people had more empathy, more critical thinking skills to see passed the lies of a government that repeatedly prioritises their individual wealth over what's best for the people they are meant to serve.

Just think, when your own government is set against you, what chance do any of us have. Cos once they've done away with us, they'll come for the next group of folk, then the next, until they're at your door and you'll have no one left to help you.

So my rent went up again... that's the third time in a row. I'm so so worried that they put it up so much every year that I can't afford the rent. It's prompted me to put my name on the council house list, but that looks bleak because there's over 200 people who express an interest in each property. So sad that the rich are taking every opportunities to take advantage of us. I can't help but feel furious and really worried, like my home may not be my home for much longer... but then where will we go?

#DIYDentistry A crown broke off this week. Not enough tooth left to fix it back in. What remained in the gum had broken into three pieces, two of them were loose/could be wriggled. Yup, I wobbled them until I could pull them out myself. And I am registered with a dentist, but it's just too much trouble to try and get an appointment these days.

I've hurt my ankle which turns out to be a sprain, due to this the hospital did suggest 2 week sick which I cant due to my CSA stopping due to my son's dad making bad decisions (jail). So I've asked the hospital for a note for light duties for only 2 week but speaking to management via email they are giving me an ultimatum either take the sick or be made to do all 3 duties, there's only one job out of the three I won't be able to do which entails walking across 6 floors up and down 6 flights of stairs having to power walk like crazy to be able to reach the target! Instead of keeping me in 2 departments where its light duties but I refuse to give in I'm due to go back tomorrow after already having 2 weeks off due to the school holidays. Would love for them to help me for the 2 weeks I'm asking.

Every day is a struggle for myself and my daughter, living on legacy benefits is tough as we do not get any sort of increase each year and very little other help or support. I have always tried to stay any from borrowing money so I have made harsh cutbacks over the last couple of years. On Saturday after paying the bills that were due for the month, I had less than £20 to buy food for the two of us, I had to make the decision to go to a local Community fridge / food pantry in order to obtain some food. Thankfully I do not think anyone there knows me other wise I would have been to embarrassed to stay, but I now think this will be my only choice until the time comes when we are all treated fairly in a difficult world.

Voting. I was talking to my neighbours lately about it, I got a letter last week telling me where my local polling station is for local elections next month. It's not even on a bus route, too far to walk, I'd need to rent a taxi to get there and back. It's too far for my elderly neighbours, my estate is full of the elderly and disabled (I fall under the disabled category) and most of them I've talk too have said it's simple too far for them, they don't plan on voting, saying they don't see the point, the country is for shite now anyway even if labour gets in. It's all just two faces on the same coin. I reminded them they can share taxis to split the cost or use postal votes, but a lot of them can't access the online system to set up a postal vote. I'm going to try to help whoever I can but most are so disenfranchised that they won't even try. I don't blame them. We have a community centre right in the middle of our estate, they said it's where they used to go to vote, why should we have to go essentially two estates away that's not even on a bus route. It's mental. And most of them can't understand why they have to now apply for photo id from an online system they don't fully understand or have access too. And no matter how I try to help them it's just too overwhelming for them so they won't try. That's about 20 people in my local estate who say they won't vote cos it's too confusing and complicated now and they can't get to the voting station for us. It really feels like we're being prevented from voting, the government is putting barriers in place to make us not vote. It feels deliberate. It's so unfair.

Wow it's a new month, with lots of changes for people who are renting privately on Universal Credit. Let's hope things get better for everyone.

Just finished a mediation meeting regarding a request to assess EHC.

Had to go part time to support my young person and thus has hugely impacted my income and pushed us into further poverty.

So I am still really mad about the spring statement from the government, the national insurance cut means £16 extra per month for me in my wage however universal credit take 55% of that £16, but due to their freeze on income tax, I will pay a estimated £632 more tax this year, now I will receive a 3% pay rise which equates to £700 per year, so in reality I will in effect be receiving no pay rise as it’s already gone in income tax, it’s disgusting that low income earners have come out of this far worse off, but those on 40k + have massively benefited.

February half term has only just passed and I'm already panicking about Easter. With 3 children and the cost of absolutely everything on the rise again I'm simply struggling to stay afloat.

Luckily I bought some easter things in the sale last year to make it a little magical for my youngest who will understand what is happening this year.

But then we have mother's day, mum's birthday, nephews birthday, my son's birthday.......it absolutely never ends.